Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Letters

   So I have already told you about how crazy my family is in stores. I will proceed to tell you that at an apartment store the other day, we found a huge bin with packs of napkins in it. Each pack of napkins had a letter of the alphabet on it. We were digging through it trying to spell out our names when my dad practically shouts, "First one to find all of our initials wins!" (He meant the first initial of each family member.) Instantly, we became freaks, digging through the bin and clinging on to the important letters while looking around frantically to see who was winning. I don't remember who won, but I remember thinking, I am going to remember these moments. Now I'm laughing, realizing I used the word "remember" three times in the past sentence. Normally I would change this, but I think I'll just leave it this time.
   I am going to have to start physical therapy back *tear tear*. I really don't like physical therapy, as it is very painful and quite frankly inconvenient. But I guess I need it, because lately I have had some problems with my knees and ankles just collapsing on me. Luckily, I have only fallen at home, and then once on the carpet and once on a sofa. I fear that it will happen at school. I got my second set of corticosteroid injections, but my crazy body had some serious problems and they almost kept me overnight. Thank goodness they didn't, because I would not have been a happy patient!
   I felt the injections (again). Grrrrr. It may not be a big deal to most, but I don't like the idea or feeling of very long needles being stuck straight through my joints. I wanted to yell - in fact, I thought I was screaming for them to stop and put me to sleep, but the sedation had frozen my tongue. If I ever get these again, you can bet I will not be feeling them, because I am going to have some very serious talks with these doctors. Ridiculousness! I was extremely weak after the injections, and I was wheeled out of the hospital. I literally could not  stand up without falling back down; it was an odd sensation. Anyway, stubborn little me went to school the next day even though I could barely stand in the shower. I guess this was what you could call a mistake, because I had to be wheeled down to the front office to call my mom to come and pick me up just about forty-five minutes later.
   This seems to be a dilemma I am constantly facing. How do I balance my wants to be normal (health-wise) with my desire to not be in pain? It may sound like the same thing, but it's really not. For example, I have trouble in cello with bowing, as it is extremely uncomfortable for my wrists and fingers. Do I take frequent breaks to spare me pain? Or keep going with tears in my eyes just to fit it? So many decisions no one could have prepared me for.
   I am proud to say that I have already chosen my 2012 Halloween costume: the elephant from the Paradise music video. It is going to be GREAT!!!!
   My kitten mauled my toe last night. My sister is like, "Ow, that must have hurt." My response?
   "Yeah, but my arthritic knee hurts more."

Love,
Rachel





3 comments:

  1. come on, be a little easy on Hannah(like u would ever do that":)
    lovvveee u

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  2. Never!!!!!!!!! hahaha love you too, Amelia.

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  3. well u did say she was one of your 2 fav. people...

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